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Sat, 31 Oct 2009 21:16:00 GMT

while looking @ journal writing as a possibility for CLP sessions, i've realized that i haven't blogged in ages. it used to help, so why not start again? besides, today's kinda slow and i'm uber-bored. :p

anyway, it's been forever since blogs were a regular part of my life. sporadic updates here and there, but a lot has happened. a lot has changed. in reflecting on the last time since i blogged regularly (that would be about a year and a half ago), the world of Chico Nuguid is now vastly different. graduated from college, made new friends, drifted from some old ones, no more fever-pitch YFC life but currently so-so in SFC, several friends now don't get along well with several other friends, and going out is a much rarer commodity nowadays. i think the biggest one is how my inner circle now feels smaller and the previously long-standing version of that circle is fragmented. ah, but i guess that's life.

it's tough to wanna go and hang out with people when i don't know who's who and what's what with so many of them now. in some instances, it's hard to speak to some because i don't know who's mad at who and whom (if any) i'm supposed to side with. then there's the whole thing about just hanging out with some 'coz chillin' separately with separate sides of former relationships is too grueling for the ol' schedule (not to mention the killer commutes)... i guess i'm just a bit worn out by recent life changes (not necessarily mine, but mostly others' that have affected mine).

and yet, despite a mountain of changed circumstances, many things remain the same. same job, same community (but that is a whole other litany of changes in itself), etc. trite as this may sound to some, God is constant. that is most important. He is, has been, and will always be great. there are some people who i thought would hold fast to God for the long haul in the same way i've been able to thus far, but have chosen differently. even still, God loves them, too. i hope they find their way back to Him and establish a real relationship grounded in more than just a very human community.

oh, and same xanga song. i STILL don't feel like changin' it. Shadowfeet is such a great song and holds true in my life to this day. let's just leave that alone for now. hehehe...

i dunno if i'm necessarily back to blogging, but today was just a rare rant day. and i haven't had one of those in ages.

'til the next year and a half, blogosphere! hah! ;)

[ Why Yesterday's Friday was Good ]

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 11:30:31 GMT

It was indeed a Good Friday yesterday.

Not only was the weather nice, but we were together as a complete family unit (all 5 of us) at the Good Friday service for the first time since my sister moved out. To top it off, God spoke volumes through one of my favourite clergymen, Fr. Roy Roberts. I'll try to paraphrase, so that I can have some sort of reminder of his uplifting sermon.

He differentiated between the "cross" and the "crucifix". The crucifix leads one to think more of the savage nature of the (undeserved) punishment Jesus endured in order to fulfill the prophecies of his brutally human death. Extreme as it was at the time, God did not take human form through Jesus specifically to be crucified. If Jesus had been boiled to death in hot oil, we would be seeing symbols as such. If Jesus had been hung via a noose off of a fig tree, maybe we'd be wearing commemorative noose pendants around our necks. In actuality, the cross was but a means of communicating a rather simple message:

God LOVEs us unconditionally.
Therefore, our purpose -- being made in God's image and likeness -- is to love.

The cross was, is, and will continue to be a reminder of love. It was Jesus' selfless one-time sacrifice (which just happened to be death via crucifixion) that shows us what we were truly created to be. We are beings of love. No, not that trite expression that is associated with sex and materialistic gratification in today's society. REAL love, as communicated in 1 Corinthians 13... Agape.

It is this love that leads me to continue believing in an almighty God. It is this love that is, in essence, my purpose. Though my life's calling has yet to become clear to me, this sermon was a reminder that the Lord made me to spread love to those around me. I may not be perfect in doing so, but I'll spend my life with His love as my foundation and example. It's a beautiful struggle, but why else did He make me, right?

Fr. Roy had much more punch packed in his sermon, but this was just my attempt at archiving what God spoke through him to me. May God forever be praised.

[ 2008 Highlight Reel ]

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 23:33:26 GMT

>> this time, definitely NOT in chronological order :p
>> oh, and not enough tag space for everyone, so sorry i guess?

- GRADUATING from GBC (SSW, baby)!
- non-stop September FamJams!!! (incl. Mommy Lola's surprise 85th!)
- everyone laying down pride for one night to honour Tito Manny Aquino, one of God's most hardworking servants
- family trip to PA (Philly cheese steaks + Rocky statue, steps, etc.)
- SFC/YFC Conference @ U of Guelph
- SFC Band SHouT @ my house!!
- Luigi & Kimi's wedding
- Brooke Fraser concerts... yes, TWICE, baby!
- MEETING BROOKE Fraser personally @ Chapters prior to her El Mo concert
- meeting Michael Chaves after Brooke's 2nd concert @ Mod Club Theatre
- Brownout Sessions @ M Studio
- "You Are the Light of the World" Youth Rally
- Hillsong United Conference @ Metro Toronto Convention Centre
- OCY's WYD Rally @ Martyrs' Shrine in Midland
- John Mayer @ Molson Amp
- Jersey Boys @ T.O. Centre for the Arts
- HOUSEHOLDS... too bad Weege had to go get hitched! haha.. j/k
- Eman & Noelle's wedding
- various YUKA shows!!
- The Beaches Jazz Festival
- Dr. Payne & the Disease: CD release party
- Migo & Pam's 2nd wedding reception
- CFC GTA Christmas Party @ Grand Baccus
- SFC East Christmas Party @ Casa Manila
- some retreats @ St. Jude's
- St. Jude's Christmas celebrations (esp. the Snowstorm Day)
- CFC Pastoral Congress @ Kalayaan
- CFC mid-yr thing (Caroline, Jonie, Renee, and I played); Krispy Kreme =)
- Ascension @ CCS Relay for Life
- TNA Wrestling's "No Surrender" PPV @ GM Centre
- WWE Supershow @ ACC (Trish Stratus' surprise return!)
- my pre-birthday dinner (Yueh Tung!!)
- Singles Weekend 1 @ Edgewood
- Singles Leaders Retreat @ Shadow Lake
- basketball
- working out
- Camp Olympia
(i'm sure i'm missing some stuff)

[ movies of the year ]
1) The Dark Knight (was there any doubt as to which one was the best?)
2) Iron Man
3) Hancock
4) Step Brothers
5) Kung Fu Panda
6) You Don't Mess with the Zohan
7) Cloverfield
8) Wanted
9) Get Smart
10) The Incredible Hulk

[ movies: honourable mention ]
- Quantum of Solace
- Hellboy II: The Golden Army
- Forgetting Sarah Marshall
- Rambo
- The Forbidden Kingdom
- Harold and Kumar: Escape from Guantanamo Bay
- Tropic Thunder

[ i'm gonna miss... ]
... Tito Manny Aquino.
... George Brown College.
... Mitchell Family Books.
... YFC.

[ Hope for Peace ]

Sat, 30 Aug 2008 09:48:19 GMT

Wakes and funerals are not ideal ways to reunite with old acquaintances and long-lost friends, but the past few days have been filled with just that: reunions. Brothers and sisters in Christ reconnecting with one another, laying down the pride that has divided them in order to let love, joy, and peace ebb and flow between them once more.

As family, friends, and the community at large gathered to celebrate the life of my uncle, Manny Aquino, it was as if I was lost in some sort of time warp. People from one side of conflict set aside personal grudges against another side in order to honour their fallen comrade. Despite my feelings of sadness that I will not be seeing my Dad's brother-in-law at our family Thanksgiving parties using his electric knife to carve a large turkey (among a myriad of other memories), I could not help but feel this tremendous happiness in watching fellow servants in Christ return to the realization that they still (and will ALWAYS) have so much in common! It was almost as if I had fallen into a dreamlike utopia. But then I realized that it was not a dream. This was very real. This was a very real sign that there is hope. Hope for what? Well, to be completely forthright with you, I now have hope for peace. Someday, we will all be together again. Whether it's in this life or the life to come, we will all praise God with hearts truly being one again.

Though it was brief, it was all very beautiful. What a way to send off one of Christ's greatest soldiers: my Tito Manny. Thank you to all who were present. God loves you... ALL of you.

Father God, thank You for speaking to my heart once again. I have been jaded by so many circumstances in my life as of late, but I realize now that I must never lose hope. No matter how dire the situation, Your divine providence and perfect timing and will are not to be doubted. And so I continue to wait upon You, Lord. In You, I trust. AMEN.

[ rest in peace, Tito Manny ]

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 12:03:29 GMT

Yesterday, at about 4:50PM, Manuel Aquino (affectionately known as "Tito Manny") passed away at The Scarborough Hospital (General Division) among family and friends.

Tito Manny lived to serve. Serve what or whom, you may ask. The answer is -- and has always been -- GOD. Since coming to know His Lord and Saviour, Tito Manny served God any way possible, be it through his family, his friends, or his community.

Being related to him, I know for a fact that we are feeling this very deeply in our local family tree. It's almost like losing one of the tree's most firmly entrenched roots. My heart goes out to Tita Chit, Christine, Jessie, and Noel. This is undoubtedly a difficult time for us all, especially the four of you. Nevertheless, we are always here for you.

Being in the same community as him and many of his friends, I also know that this will have tremendous ramifications (whether or not you will be able to see it) within CFC (Couples for Christ) Canada. This is because Tito Manny always pushed it to the limit (and beyond) when it came to service. Since its inception in 1993, one of CFC Toronto's hardest working soldiers has always been Tito Manny Aquino. Whether it's a Household or a Conference, you could be sure that Tito Manny was somewhere in the background looking out for logistics, transportation, or anything he could help with. Whether in a big or small way, he contributed to virtually every major event he could get to! Moreover, he was always a stalwart supporter of God's real love and truth! He will surely be missed.

So, rest easy now, Tito Manny. May God send angels to escort you (in a minivan, no less) into His heavenly kingdom, where he can embrace you and tell you...

"Well done, good and faithful servant."
(Matthew 25:23)

[ Been a while... ]

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 11:29:42 GMT

... since I've blogged.

... since I went to a nice, intimately prayerful retreat. Hooray for SFC Discovery Weekend!

... since I've been to a concert, which is why I'm pumped for Brooke Fraser's show tomorrow!

... since John Mayer has released an album, but now there's "Where the Light Is"!!!

... since CFC has been whole. Gotta keep praying for that mess.

... since WWE has felt this fresh and exciting! Hooray for the Draft! CM Punk is World Champ!

... since I've had regular income. Praise God for my "job"!!

... since we immigrated to Canada. Today marks 14 years for us. HAPPY CANADA DAY!!

[ Enough ]

Tue, 27 May 2008 16:31:09 GMT

(words/music by Louie Giglio & Chris Tomlin)

Chorus:
All of You is more than enough for
All of me, for every thirst and
Every need, You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough

Verse 1:
You're my supply
My breath of life
Still more awesome than I know
You are my reward
Worth living for
Still more awesome than I know

(Chorus)

Verse 2:
You’re my sacrifice
Of greatest price
And still more awesome than I know
You’re my coming King
You're my everything
And still more awesome than I know

(Chorus)

Bridge:
More than all I want
More than all I need
You are more than enough for me
More than all I know
More than all I can see
You are more than enough

[ Recap, Preview ]

Mon, 12 May 2008 01:50:34 GMT

"Oh-Eight"... Ups and downs already... This will be a regurgitation of the past few months.

So far:
- Placement @ CLOC (Community Living Oshawa/Clarington)... i kinda miss them.
- Became a Household Head again after years of not being one
- Brian moved to Fort "McFlurry"... sucka!!!! hahaha j/k COME BACK!!
- Tito Jimmy and Tita Helen have each been called to the afterlife :(
- Mario Kart Wii almost ruined my academic life :)
- Finished the Social Service Worker program @ GBC (yay! i survived.. and thrived!)
- Resumed some of the ol' social life
- Resumed work @ St. Jude's Academy of the Arts (sort of)
- Resumed playing music for the Lord
- Have had a lot of home time over the last year
- Iron Man: what a GREAT movie!
- YFC Metro East Pre-Con (yesterday), followed by Super Sushi House (yum!)
- CLP (almost done)... facilitating has been rather interesting

Comin' up:
- Band practices galore (for up to 3 different bands?! yikes)
- Family trip to PA (Victoria Day Weekend)
- "You Are the Light of the World" Youth Rally (May 30)
- YFC Metro West Pre-Con (May 31)
- CFC & FM Pro-Life Conference (June 7)
- CONVOCATION CEREMONY!!! (June 11)
- SFC Toronto Pre-Con (June 15, if the date stands)
- Brooke Fraser @ El Mocambo (July 2)
- John Mayer @ Molson Amphitheatre (July 7.. maybe)
- Weege's wedding
- YFC/SFC Conference @ U of Guelph (Aug. 15-17)
- Hillsong United Conference @ Metro Toronto Convention Centre (Aug. 29-30)
- The rest of my life... (dun dun dun)

Some more somewhat specific highlights:
- Finishing that last class @ GBC... sweet feeling of achievement. what a rush!
- Getting my grades back (8 A's, 1 B)
- Squished like sardines inside Angie's van (May 7)... illegal fun! =)
- Chillage & deep convos w/ some of my best friends/bandmates (May 7-11)
- Passing the torch (May 10)
- Benny Lava & Tunak Tunak (search each of those on YouTube)
- Corrupted movie titles (ongoing game)
- Tax return... whew! 'nuff said.

If I missed anything, whatevs. Can't remember EVERYthing, ya know!
So quit sulking and remind me already! =)

Hooray for Internet-clogging blog content that hardly anyone will care about anyway. haha

Finally, mommies are awesome (mine included)! Hooray for Mothers' Day.

[ BROOKE FRASER is touring North America... including TORONTO! ]

Thu, 01 May 2008 05:57:59 GMT

Yes, Renee, she's also stoppin' by Vancouver. =)

[ FINALLY ]

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 19:32:17 GMT

Done.

=)